screwed up

why am i always landing myself in some sort of on-the-edge/ deep shit situation?

i mean WHO forgets to go for PFT 2???
diy.
and WHO pons 2.4 after that.

i mean i know it's no point going since i missed 5 items but i didn't fail it or anything ):
plus i was like WHAT?? like i was so shocked that i had to take it then i was shocked by the fact that i was actually shocked about such a stupid obvious clearcut thing I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.

and mrs anis was so scary i hated it hated it hated it. )):
and i hated myself at that very spot cos i couldn't believe how shallow and stupid i could get.

and when you get all scared and tense, nothing escapes your mouth. like you want to answer questions but you cant let your mouth open up cos it would be like releasing the tiger from the cage or something.

you know???
you dont. nevermind.

i am such a LOSER I CANNOT TAHAAAN.

okay and bio was sooo arghhh.
):
i might have failed. i pray not. i hope mr De Souza goes easy on me. i mean come ON look at me! x) cut the girl some slack!
and i felt so mad at myself again for not filling in something random into the blanks, just in case i get it right by luck.

(loser)

but anyway, i should have gone for PFT i really regret ponning, cos it's the attendance that matters. now i wonder what disciplinary action'll be placed on me. ):

ohyes, and i'm sorry you guys i'm not going for tarian ): anyway you guys were damn cool today at tarian practice! (:

i dont know what to say to myself. GAWD.

okay i've like math assignment and malay magazine interview questions to complete by tonight.
and compstuds script. dammit.

i dont call this PMS. not really, since mine's ending. heh.
it's just me la. i'm creating my own problems and no one's gonna help me here. cos it's just me.

i mean they're probably no big to other girls but alah, whatever la. ):