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Why am i so afraid of growing up? What's in my future? Am I not growing up properly? Are (almost) fifteen-year-olds supposed to feel this lost? Why do I constantly worry (the word's constant), when everyone else seems perfectly fine with everything? Why can't I imagine myself doing anything close to adult-ish, like running my own life? :\

Someone water me & bathe me in sunlight & let me grow?